One of the reasons I was not looking forward to a certain someone's return:
Must think of clever ending of title for Research Paper. Book is about a woman living in the late 19th century. She ignores all practicality behind and throws all tradition to the wind.
She cheats on her husband, learns to paint and swims for hours in the “hypnotizing” gulf of Mexico, all the while discovering her “feelings”. She enlivened. She is revitalized. She is a woman. Hear her roar! She drowns herself in the sea, realizing no man, can truly fulfill her.
The title of the book (by Kate Chopin) is The Awakening.
it went pretty well. i messed up a lot, but so did a lot of people.. so it’s okay. even dunwoody’s star russian gymnast, oksana screwed up on her back tumbling. HEH. but i love her still. my favorite was my routine on the uneven bars.
we came in second. i say, not bad! considering we have 3+ new girls on the team. right? anywho. massive headache after, and now i fear i’ve done something to my knee. it is painful to straighten it. i feel like my shin and thigh bone have been jammed at the knee.. and i need to.. crack and separate? i don’t know.
practice today at 1pm. a little tired. want to just fool around on the trampoline.
i wonder what i’ll do today.
currently i’m supposed to be ‘self-studying’ for my SAT (i’m supposed to do it every weekend, in fact). but after that’s over, i’m not sure what i’ll do. hang out with people? yes? no? mayyybe so. oh now my stomach hurts.
maybe someone has a voodoo doll of my somewhere. they are playing with my pain!
just thinking about it churns my stomach. into a sickening, burning mixture of anxiety and nausea. If only i could throw up that feeling. But I can’t. I can’t rid the feeling from my body. Gastric and psychological turmoil.
Instead, I’d be throwing up fruitsnacks and 10 square caramels.
This is what Ms. Anderson will do to me once she returns
Now. For the big question:
Do some now and tomorrow?
Or save it all for tomorrow?
I am tempted to to just put it off. Kick back today. Study physics. Read my Lit Novel. Be done. Deal with shit tomorrow. Might be better that way….